Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Where is my patience?

Today I seem to be VERY impatient from school, to chores, to KIDS!!!!! Did I mention KIDS!!! The little things seem to be driving me crazy today, could be because ALL my helpers went to help out Arthur today. Or, in truth maybe it's me because I'm so task oriented...UGH...wish I wasn't! Jonathan is topping my list of, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING & WHY". He has tested me to the max today from the potty to simple directions. I forgot to tell you William,Wesley, and Jonathan all have a fever. I think I wanted so much to be accomplished today...yes now I see the problem "I". So, it is ME that needs the attitude change. Every time "I" creeps into the picture things seem to go down hill, when will "I" ever learn? If "I" were working in corporate America I'm pretty sure "I" would have been fired today and, kicked to the curb. Yet, here "I" sit with the job of being a wife, mother, and homemaker which is the desire of my heart and I'm kissed, hugged, and told I love you.... for being impatient and ugly......tell me that isn't GOD!

Not only did "I" need to ask God to forgive me for my sins, but my precious children too. I seek daily to die to self and give it over to God but, like today "I" allowed the flesh to come in and sit for a spell...and entertain him. Now I'm praying for a better evening, lead by NOT "I" but HIM!

And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.
Galations 6:9

4 comments:

The Pauls' said...

I am currently reading the book, "Passionate Housewives, Desperate for God." and something I read today went right along with your post.

'My late father always told me I could choose my attitude each day. It was no one's fault but my own if I had a miserable day. I had the responsiblity to reject sinful attitudes and embrace godly ones--on a daily basis. I could get up angry with my lot in life and bitter toward God for putting me where I was, or I could get up thank God for a new day, ask Him for help in turning from sin, and approach even the smallest tasks with a diligent joy. Sound crazy? It's not. It really does work - not by our power, but by the power of a faithful Lord who has given us His Spirit so that we may follow Him joyfully,even in the midst of trials,'

Thank you for sharing your heart Laura. I go through the same moments where my flesh wants to rise up and rule my day. But thankfully we serve a loving and forgiving God and His mercies are new every morning:)

Hope you have a better day tomorrow.

Christina said...

God does not offer us a way out of the testings of life. He offers us a way through, and that makes all the difference.
~W.T. Purkizer~

We all have our days girlfriend. :) hugs!

Theresa said...

I guess God asked me to come to you last night and pray for ME. We have to get US off our minds.

I always thing of the expression, there is no 'I' in team. My version is, there is no 'I' in Jesus.

Do you know where the 'I' is? It's in HIM.

Thanks for the post. I will pray for you right now.

Love T

Jennifer said...

I understand how you feel and struggled today myself. Thanks for the scripture and reminding me to die to self. thanks for being transparent and real, but letting God shine through.