Monday, October 6, 2008

31 for 21....day 6



Jonathan Christmas 1999, he was 14 months old.
Today I have thought I need to go blog about DS, yet there wasn't any time. Again rushing around in this fast paced world yet.....I didn't even leave my house today....sigh*
I was sitting here a few minutes ago thinking about how tired I am physically. Sunday was a very long day (details for another post) and last night as tired as I was my mind still kept racing. I only slept 3 hours last night. I was thinking about how different physical tired is compared to emotional tired. Over the years I've had my share of both, I believe if given a choice I would choose physical tired.
Over the past 10 years the tired I have experienced from being emotionally drained is something I can't describe. The emotional tired hasn't been because of my needs, it's been in caring for Jonathan. These times only last for a season, and then like childbirth I forget about the weight of the emotional drain. In the midst of these times I know I'm not relying on my strength, but on my Heavenly Fathers. I have found in those seasons, Jonathan who by right was more tired than his momma, kept smiling. When Jonathan was the size you see in this picture he began to do something very special. It was as though he knew me at times better than I knew myself, and would place his head on my shoulder and put his arm around me to pat my back. This patting and love started before his second stomach surgery, when he was sick. It has continued on til this day. Jonathan is loving and affectionate with those he knows, other wise he is very cautious.
To many this may seem like such a small thing. I'll count it as another gift from God :)
DS is like an oyster. Looking at only the outside, you'll miss the TRUE beauty that lies within. Our Jonathan is much like the pearl, precious, priceless, and pure.

4 comments:

Mrs. Tara said...

Have I told you lately- I love Jonathan! I love this picture of him. You know what I miss- him getting to hug Mrs. Willa...... I loved watching that. When I first moved here I longed for a Jonathan hug and glad I was soon the receipent of his hugs soon.

The Pauls' said...

I love him already!
Can't wait to meet him someday Lord willing :)

JennyH said...

He sounds like such a sweet boy!

Max is a hugger! Pretty much anyone who is willing to will receive one.

Michelle said...

that is so sweet that he continues to this day to give you what you need with that pat on the back! I loved the analogy to an oyster!