Saturday, December 13, 2008

We are still here somewhere, in the Christmas swing!

Here is a little taste of what we have been doing this past week, keeping it real. We have lots of family traditions at Christmas time, and yet each year is never like the last. I have lots of pictures/stories to come.

We like so many others are very much in the Christmas swing. I myself have found that I'm just in survival mode...not good when Mom is in survival mode at Christmas. In years past I would have a Christmas here or there that I didn't go all out on decorations (normally baby years or very pregnant times) in those times we seemed to be in survival mode. With Arthur and the children picking up my slack making Christmas still wonderful.

This year has been very different, I'm missing something or should I say someone?! The lady that each year very pregnant or new baby ALWAYS has her Christmas shopping finished by now. This year is the first time in 17 years that Christmas buying hasn't hardly even begun. I sat and pondered what this lady's mind set is, and again where is she?! This week I saw a glimpse of that lady, realizing she has been here all along. I again sat this time with her, seeking answers to my questions of where she had been and why she has fallen so behind. These are some of the reasons she gave......

You see for the past 17 years we have tried to instill in our children the true meaning of Christmas...the wonderful celebration of Christ birth. Along with that we have given presents just as the Wise men did, putting an emphasis on the fact that presents and Santa aren't what Christmas is all about. We have some years been given MUCH like the year Arthur had cancer and a special anonymous family GAVE us a unbelievable we will never forget and that our children still speak of. On others years we have given (not always gifts but our time), to bless others. So your question for me is where have I been and why am I not finished purchasing gifts?? I'm not sure why after 17 years you don't know, but it's because of all the things you have tried to teach your children for the past 17 years....what is Christmas about? I sat and drank in her words, and thought about what my children had ask for this Christmas. Nothing! This year it seems as though the true Christ centered meaning of Christmas is Arthur's and our children's where has mine been? It has been on getting gifts for our extended family (we exchange names) and making sure our children have a few things to open Christmas morning. I felt a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach, when I looked up to tell the lady about my revelation she was gone. I looked around wondering where she went, thankful to her setting me straight....for deep inside she is ME!

I have now slowed my pace and am seeking to focus on the TRUE MEANING, practicing what I preach. I love Christmas and am so thankful for Christ birth, without His birth there would be NO resurrection/Easter, and NO salvation for you and me ! Like the Wise men's three gifts, these 3 are the BEST gifts of all....



sherri said...

This is so good. I think it's a lot where I am too. For some reason, I am set free from stressing over the fuss of it all. We're cutting back and the focus is a lot different.

I love the gingerbread house and sweet little hands!

Theresa said...

I've been thinking about you. It seems like I am crazy busy and can't imagine having more than two children. I honestly don't know how you do it!

I love this post.

Love T

The Pauls' said...

Great post! Thanks for sharing your heart. I think we are kind of in the same season in our lives. This rings true for me this year as well.