Thursday, October 15, 2009

31 for 21....day15

Journal entry #3
The waiting game

A little before lunch Dr. Carr the surgeon came by to talk about your surgery. They wanted to do your surgery to repair your Duodenal atresia as soon as possible. There is a problem, with your blood. Your platelet count is down and in order to do the surgery they need it to come up for your blood to clot properly. In a few minutes they will start to give you a blood transfusion. This isn't what we expected and I feel like we are watching a movie play out. A movie that we are playing a role in, yet we weren't given a script. We have meet 4 doctors in the past few hours all very nice. With the way they speak, it feels as though they were given the script. It all just seems to be coming so natural for them....but it's not for us! I'm so very thankful they are all so confident, but they are talking about my baby....not fixing a car. Oh how I want to go get you hold you and rock you. I love you so much, now we wait and PRAY!

"Peace I leave you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid".
John 14:27


Amy said...

It must have been so hard to not be able to be with Jonathan and hold and love on him when you wanted. I'm tearing up each time I read these real heartfelt thouhts of a mommy.

misslynda said...

It's a whole different world when we have to live it inside a hospital - - - and you have described the way we feel so out-of-control and on a path (surgery) we wish could be avoided at times.